January 16, 2018- Analyse
“Analyse” by The Cranberries from Wake Up and Smell the Coffee (not randomly selected)
I look between the lines
I try to anticipate every swivel
I watch for clues
and stare down to avoid the land mines.
My life is safe
It’s about avoiding harm
Keeping me free of scars
even when the boundaries chafe.
I miss things, I know
But better to live to miss, I think.
Better than get crushing, certainly,
than ending up flat like pizza dough.
The reason I’m saying all this now
is I’m not sure I want to be like this with you.
I don’t want to think about tide tables or parking meter time.
I just want to be with you and trust it’ll be great, without knowing how.
It must be hard for you, to be so free,
and fall in love with a guy
Who checks all his detectors everyday
(Psst, that guy is me.)
I’m trying, I swear
I think I’m getting better, but
I don’t know if it’s quick enough.
Give me some more time, please, if that you can bear.
Someday I think
I’ll be able to eat street meat
and touch subway handrails
without even a blink.
Until then, though,
I can promise
I’m trying my best in every way
even if I change like the slowest of the slow.